Day 5: Um... okay

This is a very juicy chapter. We’ll see a slightly different side of Jacob and a slightly different side of Renesmee! Btw I realized that aphrodisiac is not the word I meant. Jacob takes antiandrogen not aphrodisiac sorry!

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Day 5: Protection

“Renesmee”, my mom’s voice whispered.

“Huh?” I asked groggily.

“We’re home. Did you have fun yesterday?”

I nodded with my eyes closed. “Uh- huh”, I murmured sleepily as I tucked my arm under his shoulder and snuggled into his chest. He smelled really good, like pine trees. I wrapped my arms around his warm body as he snored peacefully. I smiled. His snoring was like a lullaby lulling me into unconsciousness.

“Did you feed trixie when you got home?” mom asked. I frowned at her disturbance as I continued smelling Jacob.

“Trixie?” I grunted with furrowed brows and closed eyes. She laughed. “I’ll feed her for you”, she said walking away. “Thanks”, I murmured gratefully.”I’ll be up in a second.”

She hesitated. “You and Jacob seem to have gotten awfully close.” she said cautiously. “Yeah, I suppose we have.” She drifted away. I turned back to Jacob who was snoring lightly. I smiled and with tentative fingers, gently stroked his face. I traced his lips, his jaw, and his entire face. I wanted to remember it in case he tried to push me away again. I closed my eyes and tried to see if I could remember. I could. I sighed contently and lightly tugged his arm. “Wake up”, I said softly. He awoke as if on cue. The look on his face was amusing.”Good morning sleepyhead.”

“Renesmee” he sighed with a smile. His arms constricted tightly around my back pulling me closer to him. I had to point my face up or my face, and inevitably my lips, would be smashed against his. “Jacob”, I said with a choked laugh. He opened his eyes and gazed at me, his expression unreadable. “Are you still tired?” I asked. He shook his head. “Not really”. “Good. We still have to make for the time we lost, remember?” I smiled. “Oh yeah”, he said letting me go. “What’s on the agenda?” “Same as yesterday, trixie and Ralph?” He shrugged. “Sounds good”.

At the park 30 minutes later…

“So the northern lights huh?” Jacob confirmed.”That is so cool, I can’t get over it”. Before I could respond an old man, about 50, walked by. He whistled at me. “Lookin  good girl!” he called. Jacob snarled. “Jake it’s okay” I said patting his forearm. As it got hotter the park started to clear out. Soon it was just us and the creepy old guy Jacob kept shielding me from. “You’re my best friend”, I said smiling up at him. He looked down at me flattered. “Really?”. I nodded.”Uh huh”. “Wow” he murmured.

We walked silently while trixie and Ralph brawled playfully. The old man walked by and tugged my arm. “ Come on baby, lemme touch ya”, he said in a whiskery voice. I was frozen with fear. I heard a deep rumbling growl beside me. I stiffly turned to look at Jacob. He was trembling. “Just please go away”, Jacob said in a still raspy voice. The man frowned and reached around for my butt. I gasped. I heard a ripping sound and a fierce growl. I looked for Jacob but he wasn’t there. A big, furry wolf was in his place. On all fours he was a little taller than a horse. The old man’s eyes widened in horror. “What the hell?”, he spun around and ran as fast as he could.” I stared at the man then at wolf. I was a little frightened, I’ll admit. “Um… Jacob?”. The wolf nodded. I sighed relieved. “Can I pet you?”, I said with an admiring smile. He nodded again. I smiled reached up on my tiptoes and twisted my fingers in the fur on his back. “It’s really soft”, I noted. “It’s like a teddy bear” I scrunched up my face. “Not the crappy, cheap ones, the expensive ones they only sell on Valentines Day.”, I rambled. “You know the ones with the impossibly soft fur…”, I amended. He laughed and changed back into Jacob.

I’d almost forgotten that he was a werewolf. “I want you to be protected because apparently you’re a magnet for perverts and if I’m not there I want you to be able to protect yourself”. I started to protest but he cut me off. “In a way that dosen’t risk your exposure”, he continued. I pouted. We sat on a bench for a while. “I’m gonna teach you to fight like a human”. He told me. “How?”. “I don’t know yet. I smiled. “I’m sure it’ll be fun”. He patted my knee.”That’s my girl”.

I swear I can feel a panic attack coming on.

He looked around.”Park’s empty why don’t we start now?” “Now?” He shrugged.”Sure”. A smile spread across my face.”Yeah Ok”.  “Ok”, he took my hand and pulled me up. We walked over to the grass and I stood in front of Jacob. “What do you want me to do?”. “Okay, pretend I’m that creepy dude okay?”

I nodded. “Okay.”

“Okay and if i..grab you”, he darted behind me with impossible speed and wrapped his arms around me, lifting me off the ground.”What are you gonna do?”. I squealed gleefully as I struggled to get loose. “Um… Oh! I know! I’ll dislocate my arm, jab him with my elbow, back flip behind his entire body and snap his neck. Easy”, I said as I did each step except for the last one. He nodded. “Hmm, impressive. But a little too risky. What human could do all that?” I sighed.”True…Jacob?... I don’t think I can do this”.

“Sure you can, let’s try another one.”

“Okay”

“Now what are you gonna do if I do this?” He gently pinned me to the ground. “Um…” I said smiling and trying to look anywhere but at his face. I giggled and wrapped my arms around his neck. “Just lie here and take it”, I whispered seductively. I was only half joking. His eyes darkened and his voice got husky.”Yeah you will”, he breathed. My heart quickened as he stared intensely into my eyes. He lowered his face and I started breathing heavily. All of a sudden, he shook his head looking confused and bounced off of me. “I never said I was gonna rape you”, he said as if that little bout of brief sexual tension hadn’t just happened. Now I was the confused one as I picked myself off the ground.”Oh”

“So what would you do then?”, he prodded.

“Honestly… I’d probably…kiss you”, I said looking at the ground. His face was reddening beneath his tan skin and I heard his heart’s beating speed up slightly. Other than that, he’d completely masked his feelings.”Not if I was a rapist”,  he finally said.

I cocked my head to the side. “I thought you said you weren’t gonna rape me.”, That was something I never expected to say to Jacob. He blinked. “I’m not”.

I made a face. “but you just said-“

“I said I wouldn’t rape you, But it’s not rape if you enjoy it, and I can assure you, you would”. He winked.

I just stood there dumbfounded.

“Wanna go home?”

TV Time…

Jacob

Note to self: Remember to take pills when around d ness!

Btm

“Jake!”, I squealed lunging for him. “Jake give it back!”, I laughed trying to grab the remote from him. He smiled amused. “If you want it back your gonna have to get it yourself”., he chuckled.

“Oh yeah?”

He nodded “yeah”.

“Fine”. I said crawling on him. I put my knees on his lap and tried to grab it out of the air. I almost had it but he threw it to the other hand. “I feel like the monkey in the middle” I said as he tossed it to the other hand right before I almost grabbed it. “The monkey in the middle”, he questioned with a grin.  I laughed. “Shut up. Yes, the monkey in the middle” I laughed again and put my hands on his shoulders to help me get the remote. Unfortunately, my knee slipped from underneath me and I landed on him on my butt.”Oomphf!” I cried in surprise and grabbed his arms to stable myself. “Damn gravity…” I muttered. He laughed at me.”Fail”. I laughed despite myself. I was so close to him. We looked at each other square in the face.

Distantly, I heard keys jingling and a bag crinkling. “Jake? Ness?”, my dad called. We both averted our eyes for a second. I took advantage of the distraction and snatched the remote. “Ha” I said as I threw my leg off of him and went to go help my parents with the groceries. He stared after me for a second then he followed. “What’s all this?”, I asked mom as Jacob came into the kitchen and stood beside me. “Never leave each other’s side. I remember when it was like that with me and Jake. Don’t you?”. I looked at the floor unsure of my feelings. I knew they’d had a thing for each other but I still didn’t like hearing about it.” “Mm “, Jacob murmured as he rubbed my back deeply. I turned and saw him looking at me. I felt heat from inside my body radiating throughout me. He  smiled at me and it was hard to believe he ever hated me. I smiled back. My mom spoke.”In answer to your question, it’s Halloween stuff for the party.” “Alice is planning it so it should be epic.” Jacob’s phone vibrated and he dug it out of his pocket and motioned for me to come look. I walked over. “Speak of the devil, it’s Alice”, he told me. My phone rang: ’Stop talking, stop talking I don’t wanna talk anymore I left my heart and my head on the dance floor…’ I’d gotten a text too. “Really?”, mom said as she refrigerated Hawaiian punch. “You guys read each other’s messages?” We looked up briefly, “Of course”, we said in unison. This was what Jacob’s message looked like:

Ally to Jake

Hey Jake! Had so much fun with you guys yesterday!<:

 So what’ve you guys been doing! Me and Jasper just went hunting.

But I’m eating a pomegranate now.

I might go to McDonald’s l8er, What’s ness doing? Is she asleep?

 Did she get my text? Where you asleep?

 Oh I’m sorry! I had a lot of caffeine.

 I finished my pomegranate.

 Do you like grapes?

-Ciao!

Sent Tuesday 10:15

Me and Jacob laughed. “Only Alice could ramble in a text”, Jacob said. I laughed as Jacob texted back.

Jake to Ally

I had fun too[:

And no, me and ness weren’t asleep.

We’ve been up for hours now cuz we went to walk our dogs.

See ya

-Woof woof

Sent Tuesday 10:16

Alice’s message to me:

Ally to Nessie

We’re going to have bring Jacob along more often with us.

He’s so awesome.

Super excited for the partaaayyy!

-Ciao!

S ent Tuesday 10:17

My response was this:

Nessie to Ally

Yeah , he’s really gr8

I’ve never been to a party b4

Shud b fun!

See ya l8er !

-The one and only, Renesmee

Sent Tuesday 10:18

“In answer to the second question that was undoubtedly on your mind”, my mom said. “Tonight.”

I looked up. “What? Tonight?”’ She smiled. “Yeah, the party is tonight”

“Tonight?”, I said confused. Jacob answered me. “Tonight.”

I spun around. “Tonight?”, I questioned again.  Jacob sucked his teeth. “Tonight”.

“Ok can we all stop saying tonight, like now?”, my mom laughed.

“Why so soon though?”, I said weakly.

Jacob shrugged. “Why not?”

He lifted me onto a barstool causing me to blush.

“Where’s Trixie and Ralph?”

“ They’re over at the house sleeping. Rose is looking after them.”, Jacob answered.”Well I’d better let you get your costume and everything but I’ll see you tonight right?”

I nodded. “Most def”. He smiled. “Kay see you later”.

“Bye”, I said and then he left.

“So mom, what are you going as?”

“It’s a surprise.”

“Oh, well I don’t wanna buy a costume. I wanna make it. See ya”. When I went to my room I shut the door and walked to my closet. I rifled through my closet looking for something suitable to wear. I pulled out a big, red nose with a piece of elastic glued to it. I strapped it to my nose. “I could go as a clown”, I inspected it in a mirror. “Nah, I’ll look silly”.

 “Maybe I should go as a rabbit”, I said trying on bunny ears. “Or a princess”. I didn’t really want to go as a sparkly, fairy princess but I did like the whole princess theme maybe I could put my own spin on it.

So, very much inspired, I went to work on my costume. I could not decide which direction I wanted to take this costume in. I fished a plain black dress out of my closet and put it on my bed as I tried to figure out what to do with. Making a costume wasn’t as easy as I thought it’d be. “Hmm”, I said getting a pair of scissors and tapping it against my lip in concentration. I snipped the neckline down a bit then I had an idea. I fixed the dress on a mannequin and went to work sewing, cutting, mending and adding different types of fabric.

When I was finished I was very pleased with the result.

 It was black obviously, with a skin tight black and pink corset for the top part except the straps that were thicker and hung off the shoulders.

.It had a kind of lace train on the back and thigh would be exposed in the front .It had gloves like this:

Then I added shoes like this:

 I decided on doing a warrior princess so I added a sword:

.And a scepter for good measure:

.My hair was like this:

Except there would be a long side bang in the front.The whole ensemble was very sexy, A little too sexy. I wasn’t sure it’d go over well with my parents. I flipped my phone out and called Jacob, He answered before the first ring.

“ Hey.What’s up?”

“I finished my costume”

“Great. Can I see it.”

“It’s a surprise”

“Oh ok… well come to the house whenever you can. We’re gonna start setting up for the party”.-

“Cool, what time?”

“about 10ish”

“Okay. I’ll be there”

“Good”

“Jacob?”

“Yeah?”

“I miss you”, I whispered embarrassed. He’d  only been gone an hour or  two.

“I miss you too.”

Wow that sounded so good coming out of his mouth. Mmm… “I’ll see you in 5 then”

“See you”

“bye”. Click.

I dashed out of my room and swept straight past mom. “I’m gonna help Jacob and the others set up. Bye!”, I called. “Bye!”, mom called back.

5 minutes later…

“This is not a 4^th grade Halloween party.” Alice scolded Emmett who’d jokingly suggested that we cut out  paper skeletons  and hang them on the wall.  Our decorations looked pretty good so far. I stood  on my tiptoes and tried to hang cobwebs from the ceiling. Not even close. I went for a ladder but Jacob stopped me. “Not nessacary”, he grabbed my waist and lifted me up.

I successfully taped the cobwebs from corner to corner.  I bounced down and kissed his warm cheek.” Thanks”,

He  smiled. “Looks great.”

“Teamwork”, I said slapping his hand.

I’d changed into comfortable clothing, green, tight fitting,  thin hoodie with elbow sleeves and white hearts., matching green sweatpants with a white hearts down the side and green and white hightops. Comfy but cute.  I put my hands in my sweatpants pocket and i tilted back and forth  trying to find something to do.

“Something’s  not quite right….hmm”, Rosalie said to herself. Her eyes brightened. “Oh! I know!  Music!”, she popped in a Blue October  CD. (Great band, check em out!)

Blue skies-------calling on blue skies--------don’t take them away, boys, never take them away------cause I’ll never stop loving my….

The song played loudly. I sat down on the floor and closed my eyes, I listened.   To be honest, I was a little bit in love with Justin Furstenfeld from Blue October, Which simultaneously felt very wrong, yet so right. I liked him because he was strange but not in an awkward way and yet so loving but not in a pansy way.

“Weird song”, a familiar voice said sitting beside me.   I smiled a little and sighed. “No”, I said resurfacing from my mini trance. Blue October always kinda did that to me.”Hmm I guess that’s a matter of opinion.” Jacob shrugged . “Guess so”. I smiled. Jacob was the only person I could tolerate insulting The Band, in my opinion.  I rested my head  on his shoulder as I watched Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie and Alice dash around yards away from us putting up decorations.

“It’s strange”, Jacob murmured running his fingers through my hair. “How comfortable you are with me.” I  looked  up at him he was smiling distantly.  I turned around blushing.  “Do I have any reason not to be?”, I challenged. “No, I was just saying…”, he said quickly. I smiled and nuzzled my head in his shoulder. It would  be so easy to just kiss him, to kiss him before he had time to push me away. But I wouldn’t do that, especially not in front of my family. I couldn’t ruin this moment.

“What are you gonna be for Halloween?”, I asked instead.

“A werewolf”

We laughed briefly before I asked :”Should we go help?” He shook his head.”We’ve done enough”. i  made a face. “We hung up 2 cobwebs and a spider.”

 He laughed. “Wanna go grab a milkshake?”

(Ooo! Milkshake!) ”You know me so well”

Later  over milkshakes…

“Top 5 favorite songs”, Jacob said slurping a peanut butter cookie milkshake.

“Does it have to be in order?”

“No”
“Oh ok well then um… Worry list by Blue October , Calling you by blue October, quiet mind, That’s my dad’s ringtone, also by Blue October, so what’s that 3? Ok 2 more…um it’d probably be  picking up the pieces  and kangaroo  cry, Both by Blue October.”, I answered stirring my Oreo milkshake.“Hmm”, he said as he finished his second milkshake and ordered an Oreo one too. “Now you”, I said as I finished my first shake and grabbed another one.”Top 5 favorite shows”.

We were sitting in a corner booth at Florence’s and believe me when I say we were on a MAJOR ice cream high. Jacob was speeding through milkshakes like he was drinking straight liquid. I, on the other hand had to take my time so I didn’t get brain freeze.

“Hmm that’s tough for me”, he sad sipping thoughtfully. “Football, basketball ,soccer sometimes…” . “Hold up!”, I laughed. “Those aren’t shows”, I said chewing my straw. “You can’t just name sports”

“Sure I can”

I shook my head. “You can’t”

“Why?”

“Because”, I said through a mouthful of strawberry cheesecake milkshake” “They don’t count”. i said as the waiter brought us a tray laden with ice cream and cakes. “Pick new ones”

“Fine can pick 3?”

“No.”

‘What?”, he laughed.

“Pick 5”

“Spongebob, Adventure Time ,  uh… Hey  Arnold,  let’s see 2 more um… Real show and Bernie Mac”

I nodded.  “Now was that so hard?” I said grabbing his chocolate milkshakes and finishing it. “Wanna take these to go?” he asked gesturing to the tray. “Mmm “,  I said sliding his empty glass away and green and white sports bag.

“What do you wanna do to kill time till the party?”, Jacob asked driving. I grabbed a shake “Wanna  go to the arcade?” “Sure”, he said diplomatically as he pulled into the parking lot. “Looks like you wanna get beat today” He said coolly as we got out. “Puh- lease”, I scoffed.  We went inside the arcade and found a game called Space Monsters. I grabbed a blue gun and he grabbed a green one. “Ready to get whooped?” he challenged.  “In your dreams, maybe”.

He grinned. “Sounds like a challenge to  me.”

“It’s whatever.”

We both clicked start. I pressed rapidly with my thumb shooting as many gross monsters as I could before the time limit.  I beat him in less than 5 minutes.  I’d shot 45 monsters, he’d shot 40. “Ho ho burn!”, I said loudly. “Rematch”. Was all he said.

1o minutes later…

“What’s that smell? Smells like bacon that got burned!’’. I said laughing wildly. “I let you win that one.”

“Oh please!  I won and you lost! Ha! You’re a loser! Loser!”. I turned around and shook my butt provocatively in my victory dance. “Mmm… I don’t feel like a loser”. Jacob said. I blushed and turned back around. “Lets do another round then jake, you not real, You not real!”

One round later…

“Crack, sizzle, pop!”

He laughed and shook his head.

“Your frying dude. I can smell it!”

“Your are insane”,he laughed.

30 minutes later…

The roof! The roof! The roof is on fire! Or maybe that’s just me”, I boasted playfully. He groaned. “You ar e sooo lame’’,he laughed. 

3 hours later we left the arcade. “Sss”, I said on the way home. “Sss” I said in his ear. “Did you hear that?”, I whispered. Jacob cracked a grin.

“ I think that’s you jake”, I whispered urgently. “I think that’s you frying.”I laughed

“Oh my gosh shut up”, he laughed as he tugged his cap that I was wearing over my eyes. “Now who’s the chump?” I peeked out from under the cap. “Still you”, I laughed before quickly darting back in the cap. He smushed me. “Nuh uh”.

“You know something I just realized ?”

He looked at me. “Let me  guess, I got burned?”

I chuckled. “No. I Was gonna say that I think the reason I acted so dorky back there was because of the ice cream. “

“Ya think?”

“You  knew?”

“Of course I knew. Why do you think I didn’t get upset or freaked out?”

“’Wow… I’m so sorry Jake”, I said caressing his cheek gently. He turned red.

It was night when he brought me home. He walked me to the door. “Goodnight, I’ll see you at the party, look forward to seeing what  you came up with.”

I smiled. “I’ll see you in an hour or two.”

“Kay”.

The party looked awesome, to say the least. My family had truly outdone themselves, though it wasn’t at all what I’d expected. They’d abandoned the obvious spookiness and went for something a little more subtle. First , I was greeted by a woman I felt like I’d seen before who gave me a goody bag that I would open later.  I edged around with my costume swishing around me. I felt pretty cool with my sword and scepter but I doubted anyone else would .There were lots of young teenagers there which pleased me, maybe I could make some new friends.  Everyone was boogying down to Thriller  . I spotted Jacob’s back at the punch table, he was chatting with Alice. She was laughing and sipping juice and Jacob was making hand gestures. Her eyes landed on me.  “Oh. My God! You look adorable!”, she trilled as she danced over to me. “Thanks Alice” I said as Jacob turned around. “Well I’ll leave you two to talk”. She looked at Jacob then me and laughed a little and walked away. I walked towards Jacob and expertly swiveled my sword around and flashed him a grin. Who said a woman can’t yield a sword?  

(Current song playing at party: Pink :  Just give me a reason)

Jacob was speechless as he looked me up and down. I felt the urge to cover my ears his heart was beating so loud and fast, it was killing my ears. He seemed to be having trouble breathing.  He balanced himself on the punch table.  He looked me up and down.

 “Hey”. He choked. I smiled, thoroughly amused and balanced on my sword. “Hey”.  He glanced at my perked up boobs and bit his lip looking away.

 “’Sweet sword.”   I smiled and yielded it excellently once more before turning it long ways and rolling it over my breasts and down my body. I smirked. Though I wasn’t looking at him I knew he was watching me.  I looked up at him. “You like?” He stared at me uncertainly.  “Yeah, you could do some serious damage with that thing.” I smiled.” Not as much as you could with this.” I said holding up the scepter.

  “Yeah…”, he said as his gaze traveled slowly from my breasts to my exposed thigh.  I raised an eyebrow with another mocking smirk and followed his eyes.  I glanced at Alice, yards away she giggled with a thumbs up,. I chuckled and winked at her.

“It’s the craziest thing , I wasn’t aware that my eyes had traveled all over my body”. I said.  Jacob snapped his head  and eyes up. “Huh?” his eyes were dazed. I made a face. “Oh! Um, sorry.”

 “So what do you think?”

“It’s um… very pretty”. “Are you like some kind of sexy dark warrior princess?”

“So you think  I’m sexy?”

“What!  Pssh! Nah, I was talking about the costume…”

“Right.” I glanced at his pants and shook my head laughing. His jeans were tented between his legs. I made a face.”Hmm”. “Hey, don’t look at my private parts!” 
I laughed. His face was red. “How would you feel if i… oh”

“Yeah”.

“Well it happened before you even got here”. He said defensively.

“Oh?” I challenged knowing he hated lying to me.

He sighed. “Fine. You win.”

I smiled victoriously. Point..

“I’m sorry if I creeped you out but… wait, you know all those dude that hit on you”

I nodded.

“They’re just men that act on male instinct which is basically: ‘ Oh! Hot girl!’  then they get horny and go after you.”

“Ookaaaay? And?”

“Well you know… I’m a man too”.

(Yeah you are. Hehe)

“I just have better control over those dominant feelings”

“So you attracted to me?”

“Not what I said”

“That’s what I heard.”

He chuckled exasperated. “what I’m trying to say it’s already ingrained in me, can we just leave it at that?”

“Fine”, I said hurt, but unwilling to let on the sting I felt, I was strong so I shook it off. “Thank you so much for letting me down easy . Now I can move on” I hugged him making sure to press my breasts hard on him. I glanced up at him. His eyes were closed and his lip was tucked tight between his teeth and he was gasping heavily  while he clutched me tightly. I gyrated on him slowly. He gasped loudly and pulled back looking aroused and confused.

“Sorry, this is my song, I have to dance”.  “See ya”, I said  slyly turning and walking away. “Guess I should find some other dude who thinks I’m sexy… At least for the night”.  I heard a fierce ripping growl just loud enough for me to hear. Before I could react,  Jacob had pinned me to the wall. 
“Wow, that was fast! You sure  you’re not a vampire?”, I teased.

(  Song playing: Diamonds by Rihanna)

His eyes narrowed. I tried to pull his arms away from either side of the wall, they wouldn’t budge. I smiled a little enjoying the heat from his body.   I patted his muscular arm. “What’s up?”  He was shaking. “Don’t.  Do not ever, ever ,ever say something like that. I can’t even imagine someone using for the night.“  he snarled.  I just stared at him surprised by the sudden intensity of his gaze. I looked him in the eye. “But I wanna be used…”, I  said suggestively as I ran my finger down his throat  before flicking my eyes up to meet his. I heard a strange growl in his throat as his eyes darkened and he stroked my face his gaze was fixed on my mouth. “So you wanna be used hmm?” he whispered huskily as he ran his thumb over my bottom lip. I gasped heavily and felt  overheated . “Hmm?”, he asked as he slipped his finger in my mouth. I sucked his finger. “Mm”, I moaned  and nodded in response. He grabbed my waist and  pulled me forward. Then he snapped out of it.  “Your hair is pretty”. He absent ly put the finger I had sucked into his own mouth and I watched. “Thanks”, I choked. “But can I ask you a question?”

“Sure”

“Ok if you don’t want me why can’t I find someone who’s nice to me and likes me? I could move on and leave you alone, you wouldn’t have to be bothered with me throwing myself at you” He cringed.

“ Is that what you want me to do?”

“You know I don’t.”

“Well what do  you want  me to do?”

“I don’t know, just not that”

“Well then…. Kiss me”, I whispered as I pulled him to me. “Mm ness please” he groaned. “What?”, I sighed.

“We can’t do that”.

“Why?”

He smiled a little. “Might mess up your hair. Besides I wouldn’t wanna bruise you and I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself if you couldn’t walk for a while”. He smiled gently and  slid his warm hand down my arm.

 My southern region burned and throbbed. Oh God! I was so turned on. I squeezed my legs together to ease the fiery tingle, ( Whoa! I was just talking about kissing! I wasn’t thinking about taking it that far…) Of course I had to over analyze those such simple words. ( So was he inferring that he would fuck me so roughly that it would not only  jack my hair up but I would be bruised and so sore I wouldn’t  be able to walk? He’d said it as if  it was inevitable, that he were to  fuck me  the natural course it would take would  result in crazy hair, bruises and soreness. There was no other way.  The idea of him hurting me through the throes of passion was unbearably a turn on, I needed to sit down.)

“Will  you excuse me?”, I walked over to my  family.

(Song playing:  We are young by Fun)

Jacob:

I really needed to stock up on my medicine.

“What was I thinking? “I wouldn’t wanna bruise you and I wouldn’t be able to forgive myself if you couldn’t walk for a while”. That was so crazy!  But I couldn’t lie to her. She obviously didn’t realize the risk she was taking.  Was I so wrong for stating the truth. If I got my hands on her I would tear that ass up .

Several  times.

Simple fact.

The idea of fucking her sweet little pussy was so delicious it was overwhelming. I needed to sit down so I did. I cupped myself to try and douse the fire burning in my groin. I groaned, this is what I had to endure whenever I allowed my imagination to get carried away. I’d dealt with it before the only difference was I usually had more medicine in my system than this. What was it about her? I’d never even got anything relatively close to hard my whole life, until her. I bit my lip and tried to ignore the precum dripping out of my rock hard dick. I couldn’t  stop thinking about her. I started sweating. My want for her was becoming painful. I felt disgusted with myself, I had no right to want her so bad, I certainly had no right to think such filthy thoughts about her. She was so sweet and innocent, all she wants is kiss  and that’s probably just because she’s curious. I sighed. I was supposed to be her protector, the one she could run to when men hit on her. But I was no use, I wanted her too.  She trusts me, I thought.  The poor angel, couldn’t she simply have a male friend that didn’t want to fuck the shit out  of her? Was that so much to ask for?  I hurried off to the bathroom and into the stall . I pulled my jeans and boxers down. I hesitated. Doing what I wanted to do would confirm my theory of me being  a creep.  Fuck it. I eagerly grabbed my dick and started sliding my hand up and down my shaft. I imagined Renesmee begging to suck my off and I came with a groan. I emptied myself into the toilet feeling horrible.  I’d never touched myself to thoughts of her doing nasty things.   Next, I imagined her kissing me and removing all her clothes as well as mine , while  I mind kissed her I pretended to grope her ass and breasts. I fake pinned her naked body to the stall and grinded. I blew on my hands to make them colder and  imagined her pumping  me. I closed my eyes and tried to imagine her beautiful, pale, naked body. I tried to imagine fingering her while she moaned. I groaned and felt weak with want. “Jacob, fuck me baby. Fuck my tight, wet, pussy with your delicious cock.”, I could hear her voice saying those words. As right as it felt to fantasize it was also very wrong. I finished myself off and decided not to think about her in a sexual way. It would already be awkward enough seeing her again.

Btm

“I hope you brought a change of costume”, my dad said.

I sighed. “Mom? Help?”

“Oh Edward, she’s not a child anymore” my mom said.

“I know that. That’s why it’s inappropriate .”

“Look if you let her wear what she wants then...” she trailed off as she whispered in his ear. I saw his eyebrows raise. He turned to her. “Really?” She nodded. “But we haven’t done that  since…” She smirked wickedly “I  know.” His eyes darkened as he stared at her. His eyes snapped over to me. “You look beautiful, see you have fun” he said quickly as he hurriedly dragged my mom away. She winked and  rolled her eyes. “Thanks mom”, I mouthed. She smiled before dad  hoisted her up bridal style and sped away.

I turned to the rest of my family. “So what do ya’ll think?” They looked uncertain. Emmett spoke up first. “I’m not gonna lie, you look hot.” Rosalie elbowed him. “Perv.”  Jasper chuckled. Can someone say “pedophilia”’?”

Emmett rounded on him. “I know, I know  you not talking. You were drooling over her before you realized it was Ness.”

“Keyword: before. And I was imagining Alice in that. True story” Jasper said. Alice smiled. It was so obvious he was being  truthful.  “Well I think you look great. If you weren’t family I’d so do you”.  Emmett said .Alice and Jasper flinched, Rosalie was glaring at him. “Also if you weren’t married !”, he said through gritted teeth.  “Of course”., Em said.

Jasper clapped his shoulder. “Have fun on the couch tonight.” He took Alice’s hand. “You’re done for bud” she said as she danced by. Rosalie was shaking angrily when I slipped away.  I walked around and saw two girls talking. I hoped they were nice, maybe we could be friends. I walked over to them. “Hi, my name’s Renesmee mind if I join you? The two girls looked at each other then at me. “Sure”.  “My name’s Marissa” the blond said. “I’m Rachel.”, the brunette said. “Is this your party?”

“Umhmm”

“This party rocks!!!”, Marissa said.

“Thanks. What were you guys doing before I got here?” I already felt comfortable with them.

Rachel giggled. “Marissa and that guy over there keep looking at each other”. Marissa blushed beet red. “ Nuh uh! Shut up! “ I laughed. “Where?” 

“She’s lying! Don’t believe her!”, she squealed covering her eyes.

“Right there”, Rachel said pointing. The guy looked over. Me and Rachel laughed.  Marissa smacked her hand down. “Don’t be so obvious!” Rachel laughed. “Thought you didn’t like him” I snickered. “Caught.” They both cracked up. “Shut up”, Marissa laughed. “You should just go talk to him” I said. Marissa  gaped at me. “I-I couldn’t”. Rachel rolled her eyes. “Sure you can, we’ll come with you, won’t we ness?” [ I was still stuck on the we part. Wow, they liked me. They wanted to include me in their shenanigans]  “Totally” I said . “Really?”

“Yeah come on”. We pulled her reluctant body to a group of 3 dudes. We saw the one she liked. He had shaggy blond hair and piercing blue eyes. She looked back at us fearfully. “Go on” we mouthed. She stepped timidly at this rate we’d be waiting all night for her to get to him. Me and Rachel looked at each other and sucked our teeth loudly. Marissa turned around grinning. “Shut up “ she mouthed. I gave her a forceful push to get her going. She crashed into him. We gasped and hid behind two really tall dudes. Marissa turned to glare but we’d hid. Rachel snickered and flashed me a thumbs up. I smiled back as we watched her flirt with him. After it was safe, we came out of our hiding places.  “So do you  like anyone?”  I asked. Rachel grinned. I’ve had my eye on a certain hot piece of man flesh all night”

“Yeah?”

“Yeah. Him” she pointed .  I followed her finger all the way across the room to… Jacob.

(Noooooooooo!!!!)  “Oh” I said weakly. “He is very at stractive.”

“Dare me to call him?”

“I guess” ( please punk out please!)

She cupped her hands over her mouth and loudly said. “Yo sexy! By the drink table! She want you!”, she said using her best gangster voice. He looked over. Then she ducked down.  I motioned for him to come here then I pointed to the ground. “She likes you” I mouthed. Jacob looked confused and walked over.  I laughed. “Payback’s a bitch”  I said using my even better gangster voice. She snickered on the floor. “What are you talking about?” she said looking up. Jacob was 5 feet away now. “Eee hide me!” she crawled behind me. “ You may as well get up now, bitch” I laughed. She laughed. “Never!”

Too late. Here he was. He frowned. “Did I miss something?” Jacob said looking at the floor. “Oh!” Rachel gasped as she rose to her feet, her face a tomato.  I stifled a laugh.  “I- I um I was just looking for my um …thing” she trailed off.

“What’s wrong ness?”

“ Nothing”, I smirked. “Meet Rachel”

“Hey I’m Jacob.”

She hyperventilated in response. I elbowed her. 
“Well I’m gonna go try to win a prize see you later,” he said to me.”

 bye Rachel”he murmured with  wink

. “Bye” she choked. I chuckled he was such a jerk. He walked away.

She was still having breathing problems. I patted her back to help her out. “Damn girl, you got it bad.”

“Y-y you know him?”

“We go way back, “ I said. I couldn’t help but to boast a bit.

“Wow”, she said.

“Wanna go get our faces painted?”

“Lead the way”.

So off we went. Despite the fact that she liked Jacob, I really liked Rachel , she was cool, outgoing and up for anything.  At some point during the night, Marissa rejoined  us with her new friend, Brett, the one we’d    pushed her into and the 4 of us had all kinds of fun. Marissa and Brett didn’t like like  each other so we all had fun with Brett. My grandparents announced that the “monsters” were coming out. My blood  froze. “Monsters?” I asked. Brett shrugged. “Dude this is your p-“ he was cut off by a piercing squeal that echoed all around the room. We looked towards  the source of the scream and saw a stampede of people running for the doors that appeared to be locked. We didn’t wait to see what we running from I took off  too.

“Renesmee! Wait!”Marissa cried.  I turned around.“ I can’t run in heels!”

Rachel scoffed. “Pshh I can! She flung off her shoes and ran too. “Come on! “ Rachel screamed.

(Song playing:  Live like we’re dying by Kris Allen)

 “Wait up guys!”,Marissa wailed.  “Every man for himself!!!” I screamed into the wild chaos. Rachel was running right beside me. I turned and saw Marissa had finally decided to abandon her shoes.  A mere 2 feet behind her I saw what everyone was fussing over. I felt a scream building in my throat as I looked up at the 8 foot tall hairy beast. “Aahh! Aahhh! Aaaaaahhhhhh! “ I screamed. “Marissa! Run!” I yelled through my hoarse voice.  “She looked behind her, screamed and bolted past me.  I turned around and started running, the hairy beast was after me now. I’d built up a good run that was soon spoiled when I ran smack into a table. The whole thing toppled over with me on the other side.  I screamed and tried to find my friends amongst all the screaming teens. I caught up to them and grabbed Marissa to slow her down a second. “Renesmee! You scared the crap out of me!”    What happened  next scared the crap out of me.  That’s when all went suddenly black. This was my official freaking out point.

(Song playing : ( Creep by  Radiohead)

I don’t know if y’all knew this but i do not tolerate darkness.  I started to cry. i curled into a pathetic little ball and cried. Soon the lights came on and the monsters disappeared. i sniffled and looked up. 

"Hope we didn't scare you all too much! Just a little Halloween scare" grandpa chuckled. The girls groaned and the guys laughed. 

I met back with Marissa and Rachel we exchanged numbers and said our good night's.

Later on in my bed, i did my daily analysis: Life was crazy, wonderful and surprising but i thought i was getting the hang of it. J